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dear friend,

maybe you are gone, but i've been missing you with all of my might. life has been ordinary for now, nothing new like how i've missing you day by day. no miracle happened, so do disaster.

i hope you're fine up there, i hope you are watching me with a smile. what you've been through still fresh in my mind, the suffer, the tears, i remember all of it. i still can't forgive myself for not being there for you through your hard times, it's like the greatest fault that i've commited. even though you understand that my life was hard, finals were coming, i still, can't forgive myself. this fault makes me misses you even more, misses what we used to have, misses our silly chats, misses the silly face pictures you gave me when we're bored, i miss all of em.

you are a good friend, a good listener with a good sense of humour and also the one who's so hyper and energetic. Yeah i still remember by just chatting with you, i'm already all cheered up and happy, you got this magic to cheer me that no one ever have. still can't believe in a blink of an eye you're already gone, gone by my side. going to the other side, leaving me behind. i cried when i heard the news, it was unexpected, my friend had to pat my head several times to calm me down. that moment is still fresh in my mind.

i miss you, i really hope that you never have to leave me behind, but that's impossible, we can't change what did god have decided. maybe if i can just turn back the time, to the time where we just knew each other, it will calm me down, but that will never be enough to replace the thoughts of missing you.

remember the time when we plan about our first meet? it was exciting, i laughed when you said i need to accompany you shopping, but i smiled when you said it would be fun if we met. sadly we didn't really have the chance to meet do we? since you're gone and i'm here missing you.

i will always remember you, because you're one of those who's important to me, i'll tell my kids how it feels like losing someone you love unexpectedly, i'll tell my kids how this friend of mine affect my life so easily. i hope we could meet some day, maybe not in this world, maybe in another world, who knows.

al-fatihah .