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The feeling that is not good to feel, disappointment.

In your life, sometimes, you'll disappoint people like your parents, best friends, family, lover, relatives, friends and teachers. To be frank, I've disappoint all of em and the most thing that I fear, I think I've disappoint God. For not doing my duty as a servant.

I know, everyone wishes that they can please everyone. To bad to say, we can't. It's a sad thing though, you know when you need to choose between two important people in your life and it's hard to choose and ended up disappoint either one of them. It feels suck, literally. That always happen in my life, when my friends invited me to go somewhere and the plan need to be cancelled because I have an event with family, I know family comes first but how about my friends' feelings? And the moment where we need to choose either our best friend or lover because both of em are important in our life. Sometimes I just wish they will understand that it is hard.

I'm typing here, right now, not because of I regretted to be alive, it's just sometimes I hate disappointing people around me, if can I want to show the best of me in front of everyone but yes, I can't because I'm just a normal human being. I'm not immortal.

But it's good to be mortal, it made me realize that I'm not perfect, it made me knows that all of us need to seek god's help, not sometimes but every time. Because we are weak, it's God who makes us strong, if we believe in God and always seek for his help. God's will, our life will be blessed.